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quite a lot of things have happened this past week. i shall blog in chronological order.

last tuesday, last week, not yesterday, went girls training to loosen up as i was feeling rather tense and worked up. about what i cannot remember already. must have been the usual stuff. but that's not the point. the point is, after training i had one of the best hours of my life to date. just the two of us, eating and talking as though we've known each other forever. she put a smile in my heart. and before i knew what was happening, my life felt complete again. as though she's the one thing i've been searching for all this while.

the next day, wednesday, she came for guys training cos she was to go trials for national women's team that weekend. she wanted to train. to not be afraid of her opponents. we didnt go makan after that tho. she said she needed to go home. but a meeting was booked for friday for durians! had a craving for durians at that time.

nothing much happened on thursday except i tried to sms and call her a few times to confirm the next day's meeting. yet she didnt reply or return my calls. i wondered what could have happened to her.

friday came. still no answer in the morning. then around noon she replied. her phone was rather spoilt so she couldn't reply earlier. okay, so i thought. but she had also forgotten about our durian outing. sadness engulfed me. she was to meet her gf. friday night, relatives from kl and brunei came to stay for the weekend. they reached at 10pm, about an hour late, by train. klassik choochoo train.

saturday, dropped my relatives off at suntec city for them to go sightseeing the whole day then i went for training. she didn't come for training cos i suppose she wanted to rest before her trials. after training, sms-ed her about the trials. no reply.

sunday, took my relatives out for the day. first we went to mint museum of toys at seah street. will upload photos on facebook. pretty cool stuff there. they have like really old school toys and some of them can fetch US$5000 per toy. amazing. after that we headed to suntec city where they continued on their second day of the package thingy they signed up for including duck tour, hippo bus ride etc. in the mean time mum and i went roaming around suntec. rendezvous with them around 3pm, had quick lunch then off to i can't remember where. but at night we went to vivocity for dinner. oh we went sim lim square. they wanted to look for psp and digicam. the kids were supposed to get to play at the wading pool at vivo but by the time we got there it was already late so we only had enough time to eat before the place closed. headed home after a long twelve hour outing. fell asleep when the traffic light was red. haha first time i fell asleep while driving.

monday. another day of outings with them. but not as long as the day before cos they had to catch the 10pm train back. i really miss the kids. especially amber. she's so cute and talkative and very smart for a 3 year old. very naughty too! haha. how i miss them all. only have photos left of them.

lets get down to the main point of this post. i think i have finally found what i've been looking for. her. she makes my life complete. HOWEVER, she isn't replying my msg or returning my calls! maybe i expressed my feelings too early for her to accept them. but she didn't say a thing when i did (by sms, cos i couldnt see her). i feel i need to see her, talk to her, straighten things out. but i don't know when i can see her again. she didn't go training yesterday and there might not be training this saturday so i really don't know when i can see her again. i have so many questions in my mind which need answering and i'm not sure what i should do. (MS, a lil help please?) how i feel about her is best described by this chris brown song. of cos some parts are deleted cos they don't apply.