had appointment with psychologist today. so far i've been so busy with school and trainings and matches that i've hardly had time to feel any emotions. just so busy. drowned in busyness. but something the psychologist asked just now that suddenly made me go *bang!* whoa! i was reminded of something i don't wish to be reminded of. he asked,"how's the girl?" i was stunned speechless. just lost for words. my tone suddenly went down. i thought i had put those things behind me but he just had to bring it up. i guess it's his job to make sure and cover all angles. didn't tell him much. couldn't tell him much too since i haven't really been in contact with her. let's put it this way, i watched as she walked away and she continues to walk away. there's nothing i can do to stop her, it's her wish. all i can hope for is for time to heal her wounds and she would stop going further. i've tried to move on. i've kept myself busy to distract myself. it worked, only till now. the heartache is back. but i do not wish to repeat my mistakes. this time i'll let myself and only myself deal with the heartache without expressing it to anyone especially her. although i miss having a heart to heart conversation.
been performing below par in both hockey and floorball recently. the drive to perform is lacking. not sure if it's cos it's fasting month and i'm taking things easy. or i've just lost my ability. which is worse. i need something to push me. i'm not self-motivated enough. not at this point.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment