fail

midterm break has come and almost nearly gone. my preparations for midterm tests next week have ground to a halt. brain just cannot take it anymore. i think i'm gonna fail at least 3 modules this sem. ss and the two core maths modules. then i think next sem i will fail more modules. i just cannot see myself graduating from nus. as days go by, the more it looks like i'll have to fall back on teaching degree at nie. just hope that if i do need to go that route, i can teach P.E. cos as long as i'm on track to teach P.E. i think i'll be fine since it's what i would really love to do. but back to the present, i will just keep on lumbering this sem and next and see my results. i know it'll be damn hard to convince my parents that my future does not lie in nus unless i get like warning letter for cap below 2.0 or something. haiz there's really a lot of invisible pressure on me to graduate from nus. it's invisible but i can feel every bit of it and it's really getting me down. a lot of that pressure can be relieved if i get to learn and own a bike but parents are totally against it. a car would be best but bike will do too since car is so damn ex to maintain here.

raya is coming in a few days and this week's been paint the house week. bit by bit, part by part, now basically all the major painting is done. left with some touching up here and there. the house seems to be about set for raya. oh we haven't buy this year's baju yet! haha. i think we'll be going jb on monday and probably buy it then. no kuih also. haiz monday spent in jb, tuesday have two tests. fail la. just f it.

man utd vs bolton on tv now. tataz.