Saturday, January 12, 2008

lost yesterday

yesterday.terrible day.lost control of myself, my mind. cos i was just so frustrated and i couldn't let it out. apparently, as narrated by my family members, this is what i did:
burnt my hair with a lighter (juz a little bit before my dad saw n stopped me)
scratched the scars
poured water n tea on myself when given to drink
threw bread when given to eat
kicked the wall
walked round n round n round n round around the dining table
kept getting up to walk after sitting/lying down
kept trying to go out of the house (my mum locked the gate)
tried to hit my head against a few things

apparently it all lasted several hrs. from abt noon till abt 8? 9? when i 'woke up'. they called some 'spiritual healers' n i supposedly became violent. they insist i was disturbed by some cant be seen things. i dont know what to believe alredi. oh the ambulance came n i didnt wanna go hospital so they let me sign some form n they left. police came too to support the ambulance ppl just in case. n my jaw freaking hurts now.

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