fail

exams sucked. i think i'm gonna fail 3 mods including the 2 math mods i took this sem. haha math major failing his math mods. wts. argh i don't wanna think about exams stuff anymore till results are out on 23rd.

lately been feeling okay. mood back up to normal range. that's good i guess. i can't help thinking that something special is gonna happen soon. my intuition says so. my intuition is always wrong. haha. perhaps i'm gonna fail exams that's what's gonna happen. so i'd better enjoy this holidays as much as i can and i intend to.

training for ivp will be 4 times a week starting next week. got a friendly against ntu next wednesday. if coach comes down and settles the lines then it'll be a good gauge of where i stand in the team right now and how much work needs to be done. right now i feel like i'm number 6 or 7 in the pecking order. hope to get up to four by ivp. work starts now though. actually yesterday. had physical training. though i've been running regularly during the exam break, i wasn't prepared for the hilly roads of nus. the up slopes totally killed me man. but i went through with it and walked less than before which is good i guess. after training 5 of us ordered pizza and ate our stomachs out. haha gained back all the weight lost during pt.

i'm watching by the side as she goes on with her happy life and her happy other half. i can only think of the 'if only'. give it 5 years max and she'll be gone from my life forever. in the mean time, i'll just have to rilek one korner, as always, till the day comes.