good

a first positive post in some time..

the past couple of days have been good. let's start with today and go backwards. ok so today i woke up at 8am after sleeping for just 4 hours. just couldn't sleep maybe because i was rather high on saturday but more of that later. so there i was 8 plus nothing to do so i decided to go for a run. yes a run. been a long time since i last went for a run on my own and i thought, oh well since i have nothing better to do other than study for exams which at that point in time i wasn't in the mood to do so i just went to run. managed to run 2.4km. timing sucked though. 16mins. rough timing as i was using my ipod clock. forgot that my ipod has a stopwatch. maybe next time i'll remember. and next time will either be tomorrow or tuesday depending on whether i can wake up early again and be in the mood for running. i want to keep myself fit while training is suspended for exams. i hope i can keep on waking up early for morning runs till at least ivp.

i really want to make it for this year's ivp team. especially after the nightmare of last year having my spot in the team snatched away at the last moment no thanks to depression. i missed a lot of trainings and was very unfit, needless to say i lacked match fitness. so this year i want to make things right. however, my performances in training recently have dipped and it's causing me to lose interest in the game. and i'm also not accepting criticism correctly, positively. maybe after a few weeks break without floorball my desire to play will return. one thing that i feel is lacking in this year's team though is encouragement. there's hell lot of criticism everywhere but i feel that putting your thoughts in terms of encouragement would be a better way than to just criticise despite your good intentions. i don't know. maybe i'm being biased.

anyway, yesterday, saturday, 15 nov 2008. was a wonderful day. not long after i woke up, i checked my nus mail to find that the lecturer for probability had uploaded the midterm scores. first i read the average mark. 65. standard deviation 25. so if my interpretation is correct, the midterm scores across the board was between 40 to 90. i remember telling myself if i can get close to the 65 average that'd be fine. so off i went to check my score. 84. EIGHTY-FOUR!!! i couldn't believe my eyes! i'm just 6 marks off the top score! i went into delirium! never in my wildest dreams could i have imagined i would score so high for a module my assistant dean told me a year ago is the hardest level 2000 maths module. haha i still can't believe it. but to get my feet back on the ground i reminded myself that i failed my other maths module. linear algebra 2 got 14/40. i didn't prepare well for that test. i just wished that the probability midterm weightage was more than its 30%. now i'm confident of getting an A or at least a B for it. imagine me getting an A. it'll be my first in uni. but now it's my best chance and i want to prepare well for the exam.

so with the high spirits early on in the day, i got some work done by printing out all the notes that i needed for the 4 modules left which means admin stuff is done for the exams just need to study. then, night came and with that the premier league match between my beloved manchester united vs stoke city. i read the papers earlier in the day predicting a big 5-0 win for man utd. being the pessimist, i doubted man u would be able to score that many eventhough they were playing at home against a newly promoted side. i just hoped for a win. so the match started and after just a few minutes man u took the lead via a cristiano ronaldo trademark freekick. awesome. could they really go on to score 5?the half went on with no real threat on the stoke goal till near halftime when carrick scored. great timing for the goals so far. one when the match just started, one close to halftime. second half. within a few minutes united scored again! 3-0! really, could they score 5?? goal number 4 came towards the end of the match. great goal by welbeck a future prospect. so i thought okay 4-0 is good. but just a few minutes later ronaldo came up to score another freekick. this time curling around the wall instead of blasting through it which i think caught the keeper off guard. wow! it really happened! 5-0! woohoo!! but that's not the end of it, i switched to the arsenal match and saw arsenal trailing 0-2 to aston villa at 91mins. oh yeah! sweet revenge! pity my cousin who must have been cursing at the result. so that was the end of the high day. haha. just couldn't sleep after that.

backtrack to friday. whoa this is getting really long. i just want to talk about friday night. 5 cousins (+1 girlfriend) out to celebrate my brother and my birthday. went to the mind cafe at boat quay. played several games including pictionary which was quite fun. it amazes me how different people interpret things differently and draw. haha. then there was a 'shooting' game. not really shooting, just pointing the toy gun at whoever you want to shoot. almost won that game till i was shot in the last round. haha.

ok this has been a very long post. but a positive one. hopefully i can post more positive stuff in the future. in the mean time, it's back to studying and coping.