sheeeeeeshaaaaaaaa

had a great time sheesha-ing wif don n khai n chillin at al azhar. looong time since i chilled like that and it looks like a looong time before i can do it again. don's dilemma: will we still be chillin like we are 5 years down the road? God knows but i sure hope so. that's if i'm still around in this world. i think i should be a lot more stable once i finish my uni studies. if i can complete it. i really want to finish as fast as possible but i can't put too much pressure on myself or i'll go haywire.

before chillin, had school 10-12 and floorball clinic 430-6. i must say i've been pretty jaded by floorball for the past few weeks until the session today. i just couldn't figure it out. floorball didn't seem to be as fun as before, just very boring doing the same old things almost like a routine. i needed a change or just something to inject life into my floorball game. that's when i resorted to hockey. went for a hit around sometime last week. felt so much better after that though my hockey skills have dropped tremendously from lack of training or playing for that matter. for a while hockey seemed a lot more exciting than floorball.

but i think the clinic injected some life into my floorball. had a good hour and a half of basics. just basics. at the end of it my wrist shot improved. i think. well i hope so. heh. wednesday we'll see at training. must use more upper body rotation instead of just focusing on the arms for power. i knew that for the longest time but i just couldn't seem to do it. but i'm still shooting better on the wrong (right) foot. i just can't feel as stable shooting on the left foot. aniwaez, looking forward to the studying session with dons before training after tutorial. get some studying done before the last minute rush. i'm midway through the special sem already.

i'm reluctant to say it but life's been alright so far. yeah so far. don't wanna suddenly fall into relapse again once i say everything's okay. the anti-depressants should be just about beginning to work. yet i don't really feel that much different other than not having thoughts of harming myself. school is keeping me occupied mondays to wednesdays. now training will resume on wednesday and saturday. i still don't know how to fill my thursdays n fridays. hoping for people to ask me out but i guess they're busy. then once special sem ends in about 3 weeks time i once again find myself with nothing to do on most days. haiz. i really dread not having things to do to occupy myself. the chances of relapsing will be so high. hopefully i'll be stable enough by then to stay okay.

finally got my hands on teenage mutant ninja turtles movie. the first one not the recent animated movie. the last time i watched it was donkey years ago. gonna watch it tomorrow afternoon after school. yeah!

long entry for the lack of updating. i guess that's all for now.