back home

hello. i'm back. belated post. the wednesday after my last post, i got admitted again. stayed for 3 weeks till last wednesday. i must say the stay this time round was a lot better than previously. the first week i had hassan, a smoking buddy to hang around with. the second week i played scrabble every morning with uncle raj. the third week i had kak mala to hang around with and pour out our feelings at each other. so it wasn't the boring i wanna get out asap kind of stay. although towards the end when i felt a lot better like a normal person i started wanting to get out and taste normal life again. a little something of what i've done the past week since discharge:

the night of the discharge went training =) sunday night had a must win relegation battle vs singapore school boys. similar to the ntu game, we went 3-1 up but lost 3-4 in the end. managed to keep a cleen sheet for my defensive pair though. felt my overall performance was pretty good despite the thigh strain and ankle dunno what. then yesterday took my first drive since discharge. feels good to be driving again. later will be going shopping with 2 of my cuzzins. gotta add that "magic" muscle spray to my shopping list cos my thigh's really killin me.

i think i've been going at it the wrong way. i kept wanting to have my old life back when in fact, i'm sort of a different person now than who i was. so it's time to start a new life. what's past is past. i can't be who i was anymore. i've gotta change. times have changed. situations have changed. relationships have changed. it's a new life that i've got to look forward to. it's been a long while since i last felt like a normal person. i hope this lasts.