new year

a new year, a new beginning. i hope so. been missing him alot lately. i miss him so so so soooo much. sometimes i wish i could juz let out my feelings inside but i can't. for some reason i just can't. along with the feelings that's bottled up inside, i have a bigger gaping hole in my heart. haiz. what is the meaning of true happiness?

ivp season has ended. we got third. finally a medal for nus floorball after a barren 3,4,5 years. how much did i play? first match: 5 seconds (okay la maybe 10). second and third matches: bench warmer. semis: one shift of 2 minutes box play (was totally unexpected). 3rd/4th placing: 2 periods. i think i had a good game in the 3rd/4th placing match. made one really crucial tackle when one-on-one with a certain national forward =) how i missed timing my tackles to perfection. it has to be said, only after the final match did i feel like i deserve to win something out of this ivp cos i had been barely involved in the previous matches. i would have liked to play more but other defenders were performing better during training. to wrap up ivp, i hope i don't get to play under coach ever again!haha his pr skills are just... bare.

skool has restarted. i'm already lagging behind in most of my modules. at least two of them i've been lost since day one. still early to say but i have my reservations about whether i can pass all the modules this semester. looks more and more likely i'll have to extend by at least another semester. to end off:

what is the meaning of true happiness?